When thinking about what thoughts I would get out of my mind and into words many things came to mind. Would i write on gay-marriage, equality, health care, possibly love being predestined or by chance? But I'll save those for another time, here goes.
I chose this topic by the picture above, i really wanted to write a piece on the black gay males desire to create an image of themselves as over the top flashy beings and came across this image and my mind went crazy. Homosexuality. A choice? Genetics? Life experiences?
Of course most wont agree with one another on this topic but my thoughts on it are quite simple, who would choose to be gay? I didn't prior to my birth go to God and ask, "Father can i please be gay?! I would love to be stereotyped, treated with open and hidden hatred from family and enemies alike. Oh and if you can add in there unequal rights I would very happy! I mean who wouldn't want to a nice fight to have basic rights?" The thought sounds a bit absurd right? I mean you don't pick out your sexuality like you pick out a shirt from your closet.
Don't get me wrong I love who I am and by no means am I ashamed of who I am, but to think that I made some kind of choice in this ordeal is crazy. Now I understand that some may not understand even still so let me put this light on it, put yourself in the position of your ancestors, Do you think that when our people were considered less than human and unworthy of equal rights(go figure)were walking around thinking, "Hmm I don't have equal rights and I'm treated like an animal, I'm so happy I chose to be black." LOL FUNNY I KNOW! There is no internal switch that I have to change my sexuality, trust me if there were I would have done some type of surgery years ago.
Now whether its came from genetics or life experiences I cant say, I personally have never been raped or touched inappropriately and also I'm not sure of any traits in my family that would have lead me to be gay but either way all that we are both by genetics and experiences was,in my beliefs, organized in a master plan to get us where we're supposed to be in life. After all genetics made u black, the experience of slavery and the civil-rights movement made our people strong, but just imagine what life would have been if our ancestors were truly given the choice of being black, yes or no?
We don't choose the things that make us up, we don't know where we're supposed to be in life and takes most of us a lifetime to figure out how to get there. When looking a person don't make assumptions about them or judge them based on things that the can't control. How easy life would be if we had simple decisions to control everything, on or off?
That would be something, if I could flip the switch on my sexuality. I think life would be much easier to have a choice in what I feel towards men. But, I'm glad we don't have that choice, because being who I am made me a much stronger person.
ReplyDeleteIt's kind of sad though, but there are dudes out there who are flipping the "symbolic switch". Straight in public but gay behind close doors. I'm not knocking those who like to keep their business private, just the ones that deny who they really are. At some point they'll have to ask themselves "Am I living life on my own terms or living life by what others consider to be a "societal norm"?
Wow, what a great thought provoking post. have you ever hear of Sylvia Browne? You might enjoy her books. I have one that I believe you would love, it is about that choice thing. Again great post. Stay strong!!!
ReplyDeleteMan, I know all about this. My fam is very religious and I had to choose to either be who I was or be unhappy being who they wanted me to be. I chose to be myself. Life is too short to get married, have kids, but know that your heart is with a man and that you want to be held by a man...sigh...I could go on forever about this. LOL. But anyway, I did what I had to do. I just hate that there are so many that don't. Nice post!!!
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